okay. now what???

since nobody reads my blog, i guess this is a good place for me to share some feelings and thoughts that i dont wanna tell the world but at the same time dont wanna keep in my heart, things that i cant share on facebook or msn. . .

first of all, happy belated birthday to me. . . :) it has been one week since "that day". i know what im writing is very cliche and cheesy but within this 7 days, i feel happy when im with u. and empty like im missing something when im not. i keep telling myself that im not falling for u. no way! and even if i am, i shouldnt. i cant tell u how i feel. no no no. thats insane, cos im sure u just wont get it. u and i are not on the same page when it comes to this. so i guess it's back to me denying my heart. but it's kinda hard. denying the fact that i think about u all the time - and i even dream about u - is crazy. . . what shall i do???

xoxo
emo me